
I have a post up on Shutter Sisters today about night photography, which you can read here. I could have just cross posted the same content here, but since that was a bit of a technical post, I wanted to share something more personal about why night photography means so much to me.

Seven years ago to the day, I watched my dad die from pancreatic cancer in his hospital bed. For the month preceding his death, I spent all my non-working time doing three things: being by my dad's side in the hospital, going to live music shows and taking photos. Oh wait. Add a 4th: blogging. I started my original blog a couple weeks before my dad went into the hospital, and the events during those first couple months gave me much material for blogging.
It was during this time that I developed a deep appreciation for night photography. I guess you could say that it was my method of choice for self-soothing. I would often leave the hospital after visiting hours were over, drive to a spot with a view of the city and take a bunch of photos, wrapped up in my thoughts. I was grieving the loss of a relationship, the imminent loss of my dad and the possible loss of my faith. Those were dark times for me, and maybe that's why I took so much comfort in the night.
Sometimes, when I happen to be out for the evening without Ted or Cadence, I'll stop somewhere on my way home to have a mini night photoshoot. To this day, this is my favorite type of alone time--a date with my camera late at night on the streets of Chicago. And during those occasions, my thoughts often return to that period in my life when I first embraced the night--to the images of my dad so sick and frail, jaundiced and childlike and helpless; to my overwhelming loneliness that was surprisingly met with comfort emanating from the city around me; to the realization that almost everything I had believed in regarding God and faith were now like dandelion seeds blowing willy nilly; to that yearning for connection and community and meaning that I still feel to this day; and to just how f*cking beautiful the world is during the night.